upside down, inside out

I feel like that song that I hear....girl you turn me upside down and inside out. We are once again looking for a rental. Some of the places that we look at are a joke. Others have potential. I looked at a lot of places before this one we are in now, I knew was the one. So, we are back at it. We still have to give our 30 day notice to the landlord but, I shudder to think of doing it before I have something. Of course that works against me, since some of the places have been empty for awhile and they need to fill them sooner than we can....I am sure that there is a lesson in all of this. Is it relying on God? Is it having the faith that I know that no matter what we do we are taken care of? Haven't I learned this lesson over and over again? Yet, here I am again....worrying.
As a little girl my sister was the worrier. She could never get over why I didn't worry. I just shrugged and continued on my way. So, today, I guess I make up for it.

As I wrote this, a man came into my office for food. He told me he needed it today. He was diabetic and needed something other than the candy bars he had for breakfast. Hmmmm. He was in a few weeks back and I had a hard time getting him to leave. He asked me to buy him a ticket to Pennsylvania..he wanted to go back home. I explained that I did not have that authority and he just kept staying and asking. To say I was uncomfortable today to have him in there was an understatement. At least this time, Phil was in his office and I was not alone with him. He didn't stay as long. I did give him food and he gave me the rest of his candy bars. And I think I have problems.....